new news.new thougths

Many things here…I’m not going to Spain. I am slightly disappointed but in all honesty I am just glad to know one way or the other. As for the immediate future I am still very much undecided. I’ll be out and about for 3 weeks in July, which puts quite the pinch on most meaningful employment. I think I’ll end up temping for the month of June and then try to figure things out from there.

As for the longer-term picture I’ve recently started to consider living in Montana again, for a limited amount of time. My brother and his fiance’ will be there as well as my folks. The main question is can I afford it…unfortunately my loan payments don’t adjust to the local economy. More to come on the long term plans…

My job at Westmont ended last Friday and I am a bit surprised at myself in my first day of unemployment. My long lost feeling of freedom to do and be what and who I choose is flickering back to life…that is not a comment about my job at Westmont, by the way.

Now on to other things… a brief excerpt from my journal written the other day I hope you enjoy it.

In the dim moments between night and day I am glad for all that I cannot see. For a moment between endless dark and blinding certainty is a landscape of outline and shape. Leaving out all color, texture and any other form of detail. The world appears as a new form. There is no interpretation, all is one layer, basic and clear in it’s purpose. So I look forward, foregoing a squint, so that I can take in what is before me and not trouble myself with what, in the end, will remain mysterious. So I live in between, not asking the light to dispel all uncertainty, just to be present enough for a life full of mystery.


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